So I regularly search the internet to she if I stumble on anything that would link her to what she's doing.
Doing this I found a lot of information about webcam models, the bad reputation they have and all the stories about how they'll tell you anything to get you to send them money.
Luckily the site I am on now, has a lower % of visitors which fall into that category, however they are always there.
A cam girl learns very quickly not to trust anyone.
I tried to stop myself from falling in love with her and even talked openly about it in a bit of a joking manner. But it became obvious to me even though she was far too shy to admit it that she had feelings for me. And the funny thing is it happened during the messenger chats and not while she was working as a webcam model.
Her family doesn't know she does this and would disown her if they found out.
We did become friends and quite quickly I had her personal email, phone number and was chatting with her when she was home with messenger.
Constantly having men talking in a rude and perverse way to them showing no respect for her as a person. She's too afraid to trust me completely and fears her heart will be broken again.So from the model's perspective, it is very scary, and hard to know who is for real, and who isn't.On some sites a huge % of the guys are downright abusive, cruel, judgmental, and hypocritical.Something that actually gave me the feeling she was not the typical webcam girl.It didn't let me go and although I intended it to be a one time visit to this site, I just had to talk to this girl and I signed up as a member to make this possible I just had to be friends with this girl, falling in love was out of the question for me.Every person is different, but my experience has been that it is very possible to develop strong feelings for a "client', met on the site.However, and this is a big however, there are also LOTS and LOTS of men out there who want to trick cam girls into thinking that they have feelings for them, in the hope of a) free shows and/or pics or b) meeting up in person for free, kinky sex.On a societal level, there always seems to be the fear (I doubt I am the only cam girl to carry this around with me), that even though the guy may like me, and be for real, eventually he is going to get angry about the camming.Along with this, I have found myself feeling bad and wanting to protect the guy I have fallen for.Although I had an idea what this meant, it was a new phenomena to me.Those kind of things have never been my thing but my curiosity got the better of me and decided to see if I could find her.